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Today there is a strange, almost otherworldly peace within me. Acceptance? I don’t know. Not exactly. And yet… something more. Another quiet alignment with who I am right now — and with what lies beyond me, far outside the borders of my conscious awareness. It feels as if I have finally slipped through the narrow neck of a bottle and found myself in open space. But it is not the human version of freedom — not the kind where you jump with joy, breathe in deeply, lose yourself in excitement, and want to shout it to the world.There is none of that. You simply know, inwardly, that you are out. And that is enough. For now, that is enough. It is neither good nor bad. It is another expansion within. And I have no idea what to do with it. There is a subtle stirring inside — a quiet foretaste of what may come — yet this time I do not even wish to hope or imagine what that might be. Everything feels deeper, wider, different. It has never been like this before. There is peace. There is expansion. And there is the knowing that everything ahead will be entirely unlike anything that has been until now. So there is no point in overthinking it. My limited human mind can only push me back into the bottle. Do I want that? No. Not anymore. Enough.

28.12.2024.